My performance review was at work yesterday. It was very interesting. We spent only a few minutes talking about the actual goals of the evaluation and most of the time doing good ol' fashioned mentoring. We talked about career planning, finding what you want to do, doing it sooner than later, etc.
I was (kindly) scolded for not living up to my potential, not using all my talents. I go in and do my job well, but that's really all I do. I have no interest in becoming a leader, being groomed to be promoted or one day be a manager. I have zero ambition at this job. I know it, and it's pretty clear that my boss knows it.
She suggested considering what I love to do. What am I passionate about, and how can I turn that into a job? I love books. Really, really, love them. Reading them, talking about them, pretending that I'm capable of writing them....everything. And I interviewed today for a job doing admin stuff at a used bookstore--where you can use your free time at work to do other stuff in the store.And get a discount. On books! AND the store is right by my house! But there's one not-so-tiny problem: it would be a 30% pay cut, and we just can't afford that. sadface. sad panda. sad panda face.
So, goodbye to that specific version of the dream. And is there anything else I'm passionate about? I like to bake, but I don't think I love it enough to get up at 4 in the morning to bake for my own bakery. I like babies, but I'm not very good at producing them. Anyway, that doesn't really pay well.
Really, the thing I love best is books. I spent like, 20 minutes yesterday talking about the Hunger Games, and then another few minutes talking about it during my review. I want a job with books! And since I don't seem to have the ideas/self-discipline to become a moderately successful young-adult fiction novelist, I guess I'll just have to find a job that pays decent, isn't too soul-sucking, and leaves plenty of time for recreational reading.
Also, I need to get a (nother) library card. I'm so glad you can get Kindle books from the library...between that and Safeway grocery delivery, I never need leave the house again.