Friday, January 28, 2011

Links about unhappiness

Google Reader recently recommended this article to me. Written by a Baptist pastor, he refers to a Slate article about how Facebook is making us sad and suggests that we do the same thing at church. We try to look with-it and happy, we overestimate others' happiness, and we end up feeling like everyone's lives are better. So when things in your own life are meh, you look around and see how happy everyone else is (or seems, anyway) and feel even worse. The Slate article also refers to this Washington Post article about infertile women struggling with the happy pregnant people on Facebook. I feel that; pretty much all my friends are pregnant and had zero trouble with it. And while I'm very happy for them, it makes me feel even worse. (Incidentally, I really don't want to become an infertility blog, all about "TTC" and "DPO" and "OPK" and whatnot. I mostly find them depressing.)  I'm not technically infertile, yet, but it's only a matter of time.

There's also been some buzz about this Salon article about the young, feminist atheist who can't stop reading Mormon blogs (as though the Mormon bloggers aren't young? and what do you mean by "feminist"?). I have kind of the opposite feeling--I actually stopped reading a lot of those blogs. You know their lives can't be that perfect, and it borders on obnoxious (to me, anyway) to see someone portray everything as so shiny and happy. I much prefer to read blogs that include the bad days. It's more honest. We all have bad days. You can portray life realistically without being "woe is me, my life is so terrible" type of fishing for attention.

Things are rough right now, y'know? Looking for work, feeling lousy, hospital visits, renters...blah. I'm really hoping things have bottomed out, because I could really use an upswing.

Soooo. What's crappy in your life lately?

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

The following excitement is the bad kind

You may have heard that I have recently been hanging out at the hospital. Friday night, my dad started vomiting blood. He was pale and weak and all those things you would associate with someone vomiting blood, so we convinced him to go to the ER. My mom texted throughout the night, updating us with his dropping blood pressure. They eventually discovered that he had not one, but two bleeding ulcers, one of them quite large, so they admitted him.

Then Sunday night, we were watching football with my sister and her husband, when Adam's heart started racing. Not just racing, but galloping. He was pretty sure he was in atrial fibrillation, so off we went in search of medical care. But the only place to get medical care at 7pm on  Sunday is the ER. So we figured we'd head over to hospital Mom and Dad were at. A bunch of tests and meds in the ER, and he still hadn't "converted" to a normal rhythm. So they decided to admit him, too. We mentioned that Dad was upstairs, and could they put us nearby? Sure enough, they put us in the room next door.

Long story short, he's okay now and we're home. He's exhausted, and pretty bummed, because the government doesn't exactly want soldiers with a.fib. So all our plans need to be reevaluated, and some of his dreams let go.

And did I mention the hospital is expensive? They have a program where people without insurance can pay a lesser amount (not terribly more than most co-pay percentages, actually) but four EKGs, and echocardiogram, chest x-rays, and all sorts of meds are not cheap. And once they admit you, costs are through the roof. Plus it's just one more thing to worry about. I'd say half of my calories today came from stress-related candy. Yesterday it was from sleep deprivation-related Coke.

But everyone is home now and feeling okay-ish. Crappy temp job interviews (two!) this week might result in some income. Get to sleep in my own bed tonight. Things could be better, but could be worse. Sigh.

Friday, January 21, 2011

I do like the idea of getting slim fast quickly

Slim Fast 100 Calorie Snack Bars, Peanut Butter Crunch Time 6 ea
I recently got a free sample of the above-pictured Slim Fast Peanut Butter Crunch Time 100-calorie snack bars, and lemme tell you, it tastes just like a Butterfinger. It's not as large as I'd like from a snack bar, but it's still pretty darn tasty. I like the idea of a snack with "slim" in the name that tastes like a candy bar--unlike meal replacement bars, which have names like candy bars and taste like vitamins. They're rather ridiculously priced (again, "slim" in the name), and according to the internet there's 100 in a fun sized Butterfingers, so if you can control yourself and eat just one at a time, you're probably better off just buying a bag of those. But if someone were to offer you a year's supply of these, I guess it would be worth it not to sell all of them on craigslist.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Wherein Fabulous Husband bakes a cake

I've been rather unwell over the last few weeks. The last time we ventured to the grocery store, I only made it halfway through before I had to give up. I told him, "I don't care what you get. Get a cart full of Eggos for all I care. I have to go sit in the car."

So we don't have a lot of food in the house. But we do have two cake mixes. We had been in the baking aisle when he decided he wanted to try making a cake. He's never made a cake before, which kind of blows my mind since I have been baking cakes for years. So he picked out his flavors of choice--white cake with strawberry frosting--and I picked out this:

This is my favorite kind of cake mix! They discontinued it ages ago, and I had it on my Amazon wishlist in case they ever brought it back. Finally I gave up and deleted it, only to find a new version in stores a few weeks later. Even in my weakened, nauseated state, I was so excited. I can't wait.

But today, FH had a friend over and Adam wanted to serve cake. He forget to make it in advance, but his friend helped him mix it. Good thing, too, because Adam didn't want me to help and I don't know if he could have done it alone. It smells great so far, and--as long as there are no egg shells in it--I bet it will be delicious, too.

The best thing, though, is that cinnamon swirl cake mixes are back.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Job hunting, renters, and the money that unites these topics

So, I'm looking for work. Like, for reals. Face it, everything kind of shuts down between Thanksgiving and New Year's. No one wants to work, and there's so little point hiring someone new. Might as well wait and save yourself all that holiday pay.

I've already applied for several jobs. There's one that I really want, just because it is almost exactly what I was doing before, but pays thousands of dollars more. Tens of thousands. There are some requirements I don't quite meet; I'm not proficient on a Mac, although I have used them before. I'm not huge on databases, and I haven't managed an office staff, but I have everything else. But did I mention all the extra money? And it seems like they reeeeally want someone with strong writing skills (because people in the tech industry apparently can never spell or write clearly) so I've got that in spades. The position hasn't been posted very long, so I don't know what the time frame on that is going to be. I'd appreciate all your prayers/positive karma on that regard. Really, for any job.

But I do have an appointment tomorrow at some kind of temp staffing firm. I had to do the Excel skills test and ten-key entry test this evening. Total cake. There were a couple questions on the Excel one that I wasn't sure about, but in real life with a real version of Excel I could easily have figured it out. When all else fails, I always can figure it out with the assistance of my good friend Google. And ten key is easy for me. I'd be okay with temping for a few weeks at some mind-numbing data entry job where I didn't have to interact with the general public. At least it would be some money coming in. I could really use some of that about now; I'm getting a little stressed.

Although I should have some vacation payout coming to me eventually. I need to call about that. Don't want to let a week's pay slip through the cracks. Still, that won't take us terribly far. Nor will the mail in rebate that should be arriving soon. Or the renters' security deposit.

Yes, my crazy renter has decided to move out and forfeit the security deposit (presumably because I wouldn't prorate December and pay her for the cleaning she claimed to do) so I'm looking for a property management company with a decent fee structure that I can hand the reins to. I'm glad to be rid of a complainer, but not looking forward to dealing with it again. But if you're going to be mad at me, I guess giving me an extra $400 isn't a bad way to do it.

But on the upside, we've been getting stuff done, like the chair rail in the blue room. FH keeps calling it the office/library/thing. I wanted to call it the den, which he said is boring. We seem to have settled on the lounge, although now I'm leaning towards the Blue Lounge. Sounds like a cool club, no? There are no "before" pictures (way too depressing) but I'll getcha some "after" pictures eventually. Maybe when I have my books unpacked.